Struggles

Having a problem with perceived idiotic authority and math problems is the worst possible problem combination I could have.

This is how I perceive my current math situation.

 No, really, I know it's all my fault. When I put my mind to it, I can do well in math, and I enjoy it when I can do it. However, I resent having a teacher that essentially treats teaching like it's a joke, and expects most of the learning to happen outside the classroom. I don't do well in that kind of environment when I struggle with a subject, like I do with math. So it's essentially an endless cycle of me trying, getting frustrated, hating my stupid teacher, not wanting to try, and then hating myself because I just can't get it.